S3 E16: Covered in Glitter & Questionable Life Choices

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Welcome to Jerking Around, a podcast that makes you feel better about yourself, because we're a mess just like you, and Crystal makes fun of me the whole time and it's great and it's real.

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Welcome to Jerkin' Around.

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Yeah, what a week we had guys.

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Oh my gosh, tisha's looking homeless today and worried about it.

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I think it looks great.

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I just couldn't bring myself to get ready she did her Blake Lively hair today.

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I like it with the side part.

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Well, I washed it last night when we got home finally for the first time after like a week, and then I fell asleep with a wet it was.

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It wasn't savable today, so I just had to kind of go with it, go with it so yeah, we were out of town last week.

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We were at a cheer competition in Dallas, for it's called NCA.

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It's a big one with our daughters, so we're not as funny today.

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There's kind of a traumatic weekend, so we're we're just trying to be raw, not in a dirty way, and vulnerable I'm off.

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She's always raw, but I can't even go there Raw.

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I'm picturing like meat slapping.

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Ew.

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Like you know, like raw meat no.

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Oh my gosh.

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No, we're just no.

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So, anyways, we weren't going to be funny, but that means Tisha's just going to be dirty.

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No.

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Raw dog in it.

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Gross, gross, gross.

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What does that even mean?

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I don't know.

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That means like Without.

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Yeah, Okay, Anyway.

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So we were at NCA.

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We had a pretty good weekend to start.

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We got on the flight and Tisha started crying before we even took off, so that was a sign that the weekend wasn't starting.

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We literally are pulling out of the gate and I look at her and she starts crying and she said I don't want to die like this.

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I go, we're on the ground.

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We hadn't even taken off yet.

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Well, yeah, I like to look out the window and Crystal likes to sit at the window, and so we started backing up and I couldn't look out the window and I had like a panic, yeah, like a panic moment, and I just couldn't get myself together, I don't know.

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So she started crying and I go what are you doing?

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I go.

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We haven't even taken off yet.

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I don't want to die like this.

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I go either.

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Do I like?

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No one does, but we're on the ground.

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Yeah, so then mid fight.

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She cried too.

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No, Okay, so mid flight.

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Oh, my God, I said there's a fighter jet that just went by us.

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So, if anyone has been watching the news, there was a plane that had a bomb threat, like a couple weeks ago, and it had to have two fighter jets escort it.

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But what were the fighter jets going to do, right?

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No, I'm being serious when I saw it on the news, like, okay, there's a bomb threat, so the plane blows up.

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Are the fighter jets going to save it?

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I don't know why they have them there Right, though Like it doesn't make sense.

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I think you know what I honestly think they have it there Is if it tries to fly into a building and do something to somebody else.

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Oh, they're shooting it down.

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Yes, oh God, that's exactly why.

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Awful, yeah, so I see this story and then a're up in the air.

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I finally calm down after the takeoff and Crystal goes.

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She looks out the window, which she shouldn't even be sitting by the window.

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I can't sit in the middle.

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My boobs are too big and it's like, oh, the titty lady, she can't close her arms.

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So we're sitting there and she looks out the window and sure as shit.

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She looks at me and she goes oh, there's a fighter jet below us.

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So I go.

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Are you serious?

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No, are you?

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serious?

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No, I go, are you serious?

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because I thought she started crying instantly and she goes yeah, I'm serious and I go what?

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And I just started crying because I thought there was a bomb threat and they hadn't told us and there was fighter jets accompanying us and I I was like I freaked out, I couldn't even believe it, it was so much crying.

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And then you cried about something else when we got into town.

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No, yeah, you did At the concert.

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Oh, we went to the concert.

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We went to the best concert, elevation worship.

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Yeah, we took our kids.

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It was unbelievable, it was super cool.

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We found out they were performing.

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We've been wanting to take the kids.

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We found out they were performing the day before we were supposed to go there for the cheer, so we came in a day early to go to the concert and took the girls and it was really cool.

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It was amazing.

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His voice was insane seeing so many people worship and like so openly, oh my god.

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I forgot all this stuff happened.

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I like I need counseling after counseling after this weekend.

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I can't even remember everything.

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Tisha, like sometimes she remember.

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You guys have heard how she wears her bra outside of her clothes, wears a corset, Like she tries to like go edgy Like Melissa, you're cute.

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Like she's doing it right.

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Yeah, so sometimes she's like everyone's not seeing it, but I am yeah.

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Cause I am Carrie Bradshaw and I'm going to see this style and like, sometimes you nail it, like, so it's not like, I nail it more.

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I agree it's not like, it's like it's never working and you keep trying.

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No, but sometimes it's a miss and this was a miss.

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So we get to the concert and we're like, oh, we want to grab merchandise first, before, um, before we go in to the concert, because the girls had like T-shirts on.

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They wanted to buy sweatshirts because it was cold.

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So we get there, we go right in line.

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Well, the line's moving quickly and I can't decide between a few options, and so I can't decide between a few options.

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We get to the front and everything is like very neutral, like the style, like very neutral.

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Well then there's this one sweatshirt that is like very bright and almost like there's homemade patches.

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Homemade patches Like I'm going to have Tyler have to show it in the clip I'm going to send it to him, and it says praise the Lord in patches.

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Every letter is a different patch.

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Yes, bright colors, we're talking blue, and then there's elevation merchant patches down the sleeves.

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So I see it and it was kind of like um show, melissa, it's so much but it was kind of like I was like oh, that's really cute, melissa could pull it off, give it to Melissa yeah, you can pull it off, so it's so bright and colorful in person.

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So I see it hanging.

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We all were like I was like go for it, thank you.

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So I see it on the mannequin and I'm like that's so, or on the like thing and I'm like that's so cute.

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So I just picked this shirt.

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It's like $70.

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So we get it, we go to our seats and I put it on and I look down and it just it's not looking right.

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It's like I look weird, I look like it doesn't and Everyone's like.

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It doesn't go with your like vibe.

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It was weird.

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You're more like yeah, like I'm not that edgy, you're not edgy.

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So in the middle of the concert we see another guy.

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I see another guy wearing it and he has the edge.

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So everybody has the sweatshirts on or shirts, but no one has the one that I picked on Because it's the weird one.

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So then we're sitting because it's all a concert, but then there's like a sermon in the middle and he's like a preacher.

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Yes, like Ashley from our church, ashley Woldridge at CCV, he's like a modern preacher, like not as this was like stand up, sit down.

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He was yelling at us the Lord.

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You know, like more, like so we're in, like the front too.

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Yeah, Like close, Way too close, so he can like see us.

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I feel like.

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So Crystal, all of a sudden leans over and goes hey, that guy has your sweatshirt on.

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I look over and there's the one guy in the place that looks like he might blow the place up Like it was like a Unabomber.

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And I was like and why is?

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Am I in the same situation?

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I think you almost cried again.

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Yeah, I did so, then I kept looking.

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I go see Tish.

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So then I became obsessed with looking, no, obsessed, obsessed with looking at the guy, just making eye contact with the guy.

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I couldn't stop but then we caught eyes and then he was staring at me and it was so weird.

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I like it was just the to laugh.

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So me, all of us are we were laughing so hard.

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Oh, it was so embarrassing Because they were like trying to get saved.

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And he's like the Lord, don't follow your heart.

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And I was like.

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You followed your heart to buy this sweatshirt and now you've got a thing going with the guy.

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It's funnier when it happened.

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Like.

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I wish we could yeah the story sucks.

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I know Like laughing so hard and everyone was getting so mad around us because it was like a serious moment, but the concert was amazing.

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It was unbelievable.

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It was so cool to see so many people singing those songs.

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The performance was amazing.

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It was really the high of the weekend.

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I feel like when you're in like a room with so many people worshiping God, the Holy Spirit.

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You can feel like his presence and you just could feel like God and it was like it overcame you, you know when you like want.

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Like I was texting my family, I was like people need to experience this, like it was an experience and like part of the cool part was when we were singing.

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You know, I am not a big like raise my hand or like a double raise yeah, like some people can double, I'm not like a double.

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The most I'll do is like an elbow raise, like I'll do the elbow race with my eyes closed.

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I do close my eyes a lot and I dance a lot.

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I like to close my eyes.

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But I'm not that.

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And what was so cool to me is our kids are very involved in our church and they are like full arm, sometimes a double arm, like worshiping.

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So at certain points I look over, I got my half hold.

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Tisha had like a half hold, yeah.

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And we look at all of our kids are like fully, yeah, worshiping God, and they're like so openly, like very powerful when you see your kids, because that's all you want for your kids to see them doing, that was like it was just a very like out of body.

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Yeah, it was like what matters in life it was, you know, yeah and then we left there and it all went to crap.

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Yeah, literally no.

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We had the best super driver, though, and he's now a jerky.

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We shared it on our thing.

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We listened to the podcast while we were driving.

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He's like given us tips.

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We are friends with him now.

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Yeah, we're going to text him.

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Yeah, we love him.

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He liked the podcast.

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He said that we go around to you know we got a laughing well.

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So how it started is we were in the car bantering and he goes you guys should have a podcast.

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We were like we do have a podcast and he's like for real.

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We're like yeah, so we put it on.

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Yeah, we bantered.

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Well, he took us to the airport, he took us home from the airport, oh my gosh.

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Then this guy thought we were stealing his uber, where it's two girls and three little young well, 14 year old girls and he's like you're taking my uber.

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And I'm like, yeah, we're an Uber seller and Kennedy's like yeah, I'm like You're yelling at the guy.

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It was weird, though, yeah.

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So he took us home.

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Then we called him again.

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Yeah, it was great, we bonded.

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And then he did a light trick where he could change the lighting on the building.

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Yeah, it was exciting.

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He was the best, but no, but if he's listening, we love you.

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And we're going to get you a house in Dallas.

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We talked about real estate.

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But yeah, last week was a sucky week for me.

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It wasn't.

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I had a lot of things going on.

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I had a lot of like business stuff and then like cheer stuff.

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It was just one of those weeks.

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So when we went out of town, I was really excited for it, and then things just kept turning.

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We went to the best restaurant though Carbone.

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Has anyone ever been in Dallas?

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Oh my gosh, they have one in like Vegas, new York too the aura, the atmosphere, the service, and it's really not as expensive for the service.

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Yeah, it was the best service ever Like to get a good service like that, you usually have to spend $50 a plate it was like this big Italian guy and he was like what do you want?

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And I was like I want the plate.

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Oh, it was so good it was unbelievable, unbelievable.

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So we had that.

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It was great, that was all good.

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And then we had the cheer comp.

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Yeah, we got to talk about that, I just don't want to get like shot because we're talking about it.

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I am a little worried, but there's so many safe-ish Okay.

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Well telling the story.

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So NCA is a huge cheer competition in Dallas.

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Everyone who does all-steer cheer or any cheer knows about NCA.

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It's like the biggest national Besides Summit.

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But you got to get a bid to go to Summit, so NCA any team can go.

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So it's actually bigger than Summit because Summit is more selected, that's at the end of the year.

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There was something like 1 teams there.

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Each team has what 30 to 40 people as well as their families as their family.

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So they're saying there was over 50,000 people there for this competition, for this competition.

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So in a given day, the halls it's like the biggest convention center I've ever been to and you can't even move in the halls.

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It's so, so, so full.

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There's like four big halls as well as the arena.

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There's like six, yeah, six, and then the arena holds what like 30,000?

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Yeah, it's like a big hall of fame, yeah, yeah.

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So, um, our girls performed the first day and they did amazing.

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We love we talk about that on here a lot.

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We are good friends with the owner of our daughter's cheer gym.

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He's also a client of ours and we, I believe in everything he does.

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He makes my daughters, he's made them tough.

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He's hard on them.

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They go sick.

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They learn to never give up.

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They're very confident because of the program.

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He develops Like.

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I couldn't be more in awe of the program director we have for our cheer gym.

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So they went on, they did amazing, they performed, they, they in cheer it's called hit zero.

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It's like you didn't have any mistakes.

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So it was amazing.

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So it's a three-day competition, so our girls were scheduled to go the first day and then not the second day, because that's when other teams from our gym were going, and then everybody goes on the last day because that's finals, right?

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So the first day went great.

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Yeah, they did great.

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The second day we were supposed to watch the other teams at our gym.

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Yes, to build community.

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Yes, so we watched the other team.

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They did amazing.

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We had a girl get injured.

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They put someone in I love seeing the adversity and they overcame it Like it was like a really, really, really good vibe.

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Right, we went to go get an Aussie Eye Bowl because that sounded good.

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Right, and our daughters usually kind of roam with their friends at those competitions because it's like all cheer, right, which isn't smart really.

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But anyways, they're always in groups, yeah.

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So yeah, it does feel safe, but like now in retrospect I'm like it's actually so unsafe and crazy, yeah.

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But yeah, so we were in line for an acai bowl.

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So how the convention center is set up, it's kind of long center set up.

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It's kind of long, there's like a hotel, then there's a long convention center with halls and there's levels and then there's an arena at the end.

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So we were in the convention center in the hall closest to the arena and we were in line getting an acai bowl and it's crazy.

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I didn't even remember that this happened until I was telling talking to Ben last night when we got home.

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But I was on the phone with my husband and we're in line and we're at the front yeah, I was ordering peanut butter all today.

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I've been waiting so long, I was so excited.

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Extra honey, I was like in a water.

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I didn't even get to the water.

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And so we're standing there and all of a sudden these people start screaming and running at us and they and we're like at first I thought a team was going on because some there's a lot of famous teams there that come from all over the youtube famous the country and we were like thinking a team was walking by and they were like fangirling.

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And then this lady said Shooter shooter, get in the bathroom and there was a bathroom right next to us, so we just rushed into the bathroom Like 40 of us in like a four stall bathroom squished.

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So we text the gym owner, who is our good friend too, and we had just left him.

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He went to go take a team to get ready and I said, hey, we're in the bathroom, they're saying there's a shooter, we're hiding, or we're in the bathroom.

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They said there's a shooter and he texts back hide.

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That's all he said and he was out there, yeah, like where we were hearing it from.

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So I like showed Tisha and I was like hide.

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So then we're calling our husbands like pray for us.

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We're praying out loud.

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The girls are looking at us.

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We have Ken, kennedy and Hudson are too.

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Yes, um, my other daughter had gone back to the hotel with one of my best friends, which was great, but it was.

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We had each of us and our daughters.

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So we're in the bathroom.

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Every time the door's opening, you're thinking it's a shooter, like cause we're all just sitting in there huddling, which was horrible because we were sitting ducks.

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You were sitting ducks, you're like waiting and you just kept picturing someone opening the door and just like blasting you and it was so weird to have that feeling, because knowing that people have gone through that it's the worst feeling in the world, in the world.

00:15:36.990 --> 00:15:39.682
So we're sitting there and it was like 10 minutes, 10 minutes.

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And we can hear music out there and I was like, is that music or is that Like?

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You hear sounds Like boom, boom, boom.

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But it sounded like music.

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Yeah, like the bass.

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That was music.

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So I'm like, okay, so then it's getting quiet.

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There was like a girl, an attendant there that worked at the place, so then she kept opening the door.

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I'm like, why aren't they locking the door Right, like lock the door so?

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And we wanted to get in the stall, but the people in the stalls like wouldn't let us in.

00:16:03.669 --> 00:16:05.212
Oh, it's like every man for its own.

00:16:05.212 --> 00:16:06.355
Yeah, it was crazy.

00:16:06.480 --> 00:16:10.168
So then we wait, and then they're like okay, they look, and then they're like go, go, go.

00:16:10.721 --> 00:16:11.919
So we all are running Like.

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The security people were like okay, now you can go Like move Like it's safe, so in our mind, out of harm's way.

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That's how it felt.

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And I didn't want to look at the arena.

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Get out of here.

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This area is no longer safe.

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Safe.

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So I didn't want to look to the right because I was worried I would see like bodies.

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That's how real this was, yes, and I was like they don't want us to look.

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They're like that way, that way that way.

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So there's an exit right next to the bathroom, that convention center, leading into the big arena, and so we go through there.

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And I don't remember like now.

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We were there the next day and I don't remember even how we got, but we got behind stage and there was like curtains and they were saying hi, which is so weird because there's an exit to the left and then the stage is to the right.

00:16:56.150 --> 00:17:02.706
Instead of leading us to the left, where we could just go right out, they led us to the right and led us behind the stage to hide.

00:17:02.706 --> 00:17:04.088
So that's weird.

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Yeah, cause I remember thinking let's just get out.

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But then we thought it was unsafe outside, yeah, so then they're like hide, hide, so we're all in hiding.

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Then all of a sudden we hear pop, pop, pop, pop pop from like a semi-automatic yeah, we.

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I don't remember much after that.

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I just remember everyone went, ah, and like ran and like like you're tackling people, so you grab your daughter and you're just running.

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So we ran out the building, right, we ran, we just kept going and I have a really, really bad knee.

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I'm not allowed to run.

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For the last 10 years we ran at least a mile, at least a mile.

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We ran over a freeway.

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We just kept running Because your adrenaline is like get out of here, like, and at any minute you think you're going to get shot down.

00:17:46.113 --> 00:17:52.088
Yeah, because that sound was so behind it, like it was so right there, and when we were running you were like it was like getting closer.

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So you're like am I running towards it?

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Am I running away from it?

00:17:55.484 --> 00:17:56.568
You, don't know, you're just running.

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And like you're wondering what's happened to people behind you, do you know?

00:18:07.563 --> 00:18:08.746
Yeah, like there's that like weird, like survival-ish.

00:18:08.746 --> 00:18:09.769
Yeah, but our daughters were amazing.

00:18:09.769 --> 00:18:10.150
Yeah, like I'm not.

00:18:10.150 --> 00:18:11.353
I I'm not in good shape, right like we.

00:18:11.353 --> 00:18:12.375
I'm not in the best shape.

00:18:12.375 --> 00:18:15.845
I work at it, like I work out, but maybe I'm not working out as hard as I should be.

00:18:15.845 --> 00:18:23.066
So that run like it was literally fight or flight and I was having a really hard time well, it wasn't like a jog, it was like a sprint.

00:18:24.048 --> 00:18:25.750
So, hudson, my daughter, she's in great shape.

00:18:25.750 --> 00:18:28.994
So she's like come on, mom, you got it, stay with me, mom, stay with me.

00:18:28.994 --> 00:18:39.067
And I like it was horrible because I was like feeling so bad and then I almost was going to make a decision for her to go with you, yeah.

00:18:39.067 --> 00:18:40.387
But I was so scared to let go of her hand, yeah.

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And I was like, okay, point, stay by Tisha.

00:18:41.690 --> 00:18:43.551
Yeah, cause you were going faster with Ken.

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And then I had my sweatshirt and I was like holding it and I had my purse.

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She was like give me your sweatshirt, give me your purse, come on, mom, come on.

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They were like dragging us.

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Yeah, it was horrible, but it was weird when we were crouched behind in the bathroom.

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And then when we were crouched behind the stage, I I still was like telling myself okay, it's fine, this is a precautionary, we're just hiding here until we get to.

00:19:06.375 --> 00:19:08.557
Okay, that it's safe, this is a misunderstanding.

00:19:08.557 --> 00:19:10.487
Like you're telling yourself all these things.

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And then we were just like sitting there and it was still like somewhat calm.

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It was stressful and scary, but still somewhat like yeah.

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And then as soon as I heard those sounds like I will never in my entire life forget that feeling oh my God, we're going to die.

00:19:27.948 --> 00:19:40.588
Like I'm sure that people that I've had near death experiences or had cancer or had things happen where you think you might die, it changes your life in a minute.

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Like I was like oh my God.

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And then, like having my daughter there, I'm like I can't protect her.

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It was the worst feeling.

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It was a helpless, sick feeling.

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And then it was just like we started running.

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I, people were tripping.

00:19:52.034 --> 00:19:52.351
It was like a zombie apocalypse.

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It was a helpless, sick feeling and then it was just like we started running.

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People were tripping, it was like a zombie apocalypse, it was awful and like 50,000.

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But what was weird is when we were hiding behind the stage it was silent, so like everyone had already left, so it was weird Cause it was so eerie, it was very eerie Cause we were hiding, and then to hear that sound, it was weird and then we just ran, like Crystal said, and then we didn't know what happened because, like, according to us, we survived like a mass shooting, because that's what we experienced.

00:20:16.785 --> 00:20:27.335
So for an hour we're by like some barbed wire fence like way out of the city, like you can see downtown really clear from where we were and we heard sirens for about an hour nonstop, just sirens.

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So I'm like like that's ambulances, that's police.

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I mean it was pretty bad.

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We like I thought hundreds of people died.

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Me too, like from what I experienced and heard, I was like everyone's dead.

00:20:38.204 --> 00:20:38.866
Like everyone's dead.

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It was like awful, awful.

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And then reports started coming in that there was a bar fight, no shooting.

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There was a bar fight that knocked a pole over, that made a loud sound that panicked everybody so we're just on the fence about all of it, right, but I don't want to get into that part so much.

00:20:55.337 --> 00:20:57.710
No, because we like our lives.

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Yeah, but I don't want to get killed.

00:20:59.455 --> 00:21:03.971
Yeah, and like there's so much and I'm not saying it was a shooter- but I'm saying shots were fired.

00:21:03.991 --> 00:21:04.534
I know the sound.

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Yeah, could have been.

00:21:07.648 --> 00:21:09.711
There was a lot of other people saw.

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We didn't because where we were, but a lot of other people at our gym saw, um, like which was cool, like random, um, parents that were carrying concealed weapons with permits pull out and start helping and trying to protect.

00:21:23.763 --> 00:21:24.826
It was kind of cool in the moment.

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Like people were saving, people were picking up random kids and running and running with random kids.

00:21:29.768 --> 00:21:38.814
Like there was a reunification center set up because I mean 50,000 people to go people there's people in ICU because they were trampled, like it was like a movie.

00:21:39.154 --> 00:21:40.509
Yeah, many people were injured.

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People were running screaming like you didn't know what happened.

00:21:43.355 --> 00:21:46.531
A woman said she saw bloody people because they were trampled.

00:21:46.531 --> 00:21:47.733
Like it was crazy.

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Yeah, it was crazy.

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Like I'll never forget it.

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We stopped with like random people.

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We're praying in the street Once we got a mile away, we knew we were far, so they were all crying.

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Everywhere you walked was people crying, hysterical, so we prayed with them, we all prayed.

00:22:00.498 --> 00:22:05.067
Then there was a random mom, hysterical, frantic, trying to get to her daughter.

00:22:05.067 --> 00:22:07.569
We hailed a car down, put her in the back of the car.

00:22:07.569 --> 00:22:10.654
Cheerleaders shoved in cars, everybody's not with their parents.

00:22:10.654 --> 00:22:12.297
It was like something.

00:22:12.297 --> 00:22:17.372
You just you don't realize how two things People are really for themselves but then they're really not.

00:22:17.372 --> 00:22:21.095
Yeah, like it's like when we were running it was every man for himself, right To save your own life.

00:22:21.095 --> 00:22:24.295
But then, once everything was calm, everybody was helping everyone.

00:22:24.295 --> 00:22:25.746
Yeah, it was like we were all in this together.

00:22:25.746 --> 00:22:27.467
Like what can we do to help?

00:22:27.646 --> 00:22:32.630
Yeah, Well, when we were hiding, there was this girl freaking out and her mom was scared and like trying to calm her.

00:22:32.630 --> 00:22:35.011
But the mom was so freaked out that I was like it's okay, honey.

00:22:35.011 --> 00:22:38.574
You're like you're talking to random people Everybody, we talked to everybody.

00:22:38.574 --> 00:22:40.674
You're just like hugging people, like it was.

00:22:40.674 --> 00:22:42.256
It was like a trauma bond.

00:22:42.355 --> 00:22:44.097
You know, yeah it was, it was crazy.

00:22:44.097 --> 00:22:52.623
So we ended up finally getting back over to Maddie, who was at the, my other daughter who's at the hotel, but like there was 50 cops, then there was a bomb threat at the hotel.

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They had to like evacuate it, which is also like scary because we were under the overpass of the hotel.

00:23:00.056 --> 00:23:04.326
When I got word that there was a bomb threat, I was worried about my kid's coach.

00:23:04.326 --> 00:23:07.550
I couldn't get a hold of him After he texted me hide.

00:23:07.550 --> 00:23:08.711
Then I'm like are you okay?

00:23:08.711 --> 00:23:09.231
Are you okay?

00:23:09.231 --> 00:23:09.833
Are you okay?

00:23:09.833 --> 00:23:10.933
And he didn't get back to me.

00:23:10.933 --> 00:23:12.375
I started bawling and praying for him out loud.

00:23:12.375 --> 00:23:13.717
We were praying the Lord's Prayer out loud.

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We were like, please, god, protect everybody.

00:23:15.559 --> 00:23:19.627
Like it was so it was like nothing I'll ever forget.

00:23:19.627 --> 00:23:34.020
And now that, whatever the reports are, what's hard is like whatever everybody experienced, even if it wasn't what we thought to minimize what you went through, because for hours we didn't know what really happened, right and like you can't come back, like it's weird.

00:23:34.181 --> 00:23:34.922
I told Ben last night.

00:23:34.922 --> 00:23:42.544
It's like if I said, hey, I cheated on you, and then like six hours later I was like I just kidding, I didn't cheat on you.

00:23:42.544 --> 00:23:44.589
It's like you can't forget how you felt.

00:23:44.589 --> 00:23:47.076
Yeah, like what I experienced and what.

00:23:47.096 --> 00:23:49.167
I thought was going on so many kids.

00:23:49.809 --> 00:23:55.614
Oh, it's like we're adults, yeah, like kids you can see, like in the videos, even our kids.

00:23:55.614 --> 00:24:06.549
Yeah, well, now Maddie's like I wasn't there because we keep talking about it, and she's getting annoyed like I wasn't there Because if you weren't hiding, worried about your life, it's a different feeling that you have, it's?

00:24:06.549 --> 00:24:18.382
He got the girls in a closet and he was making chair barricade to protect him and he went in after other kids and like that's a lot on him too, like in that moment, knowing he was going to give his life to protect our kids.

00:24:18.382 --> 00:24:20.851
Yeah, you know, and he's responsible for all these kids.

00:24:20.871 --> 00:24:22.435
Yeah, it was just something, it was something.

00:24:22.435 --> 00:24:27.476
But now reports are coming out saying that there wasn't a shooter, which is great news.

00:24:27.476 --> 00:24:32.788
No one got shot, which is great news, no one got shot.

00:24:32.788 --> 00:24:33.109
We're so happy.

00:24:33.109 --> 00:24:34.355
But there are conflicting reports and what was cause?

00:24:34.355 --> 00:24:35.178
Your mind starts playing tricks on you.

00:24:35.178 --> 00:24:36.805
We were like is that what we heard?

00:24:36.805 --> 00:24:43.916
And luckily there was some other people from our gym in line with us and like they they hid with us and they heard it too, and she's like no, I heard that.

00:24:44.037 --> 00:24:46.066
And cause I was like, did we make that up?

00:24:46.066 --> 00:24:48.730
Because you start second guessing yourself.

00:24:48.730 --> 00:24:58.352
And then when people reports are coming in saying no, a poll fell, I'm like, well, I heard like a semi-automatic, like six to ten shots and then everything was coming out on TikTok people were saying the exact same thing.

00:24:58.352 --> 00:25:14.141
We heard random people we've never heard with our exact same account like that, people under the stage, people near that area, and it was nice to know like we didn't make that up, like that actually happened, because how do hundreds of people that don't know each other have the exact same experience?

00:25:14.141 --> 00:25:18.674
Yeah, so we don't know what happened, but but learning from it.

00:25:18.875 --> 00:25:23.750
Yeah, I think it's important now like we're learning, like everywhere we're we've gone in the last day and a half.

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I'm looking at exits.

00:25:25.094 --> 00:25:28.107
It's weird, yeah, you don't like think about that, you know.

00:25:28.107 --> 00:25:30.594
But like where we were, we were very trapped.

00:25:30.594 --> 00:25:48.851
There wasn't exits close by and now, like we were even at a restaurant that night and I was looking for the exit and I was like and luckily that wasn't as horrific as other people's experiences have been Now I'm like I can't even imagine what people have lived through Like any kind of Like how do you go on without being a basket case?

00:25:48.872 --> 00:25:50.856
Yeah Well, I'm there.

00:25:50.856 --> 00:25:54.210
Do you go on without being a basket case?

00:25:54.210 --> 00:25:55.295
Yeah well, I'm there, you're there, but yeah, anyways.

00:25:55.295 --> 00:25:56.018
So we've just been shooken up.

00:25:56.018 --> 00:25:57.403
Yeah, I sometimes think those things are a blessing and a curse.

00:25:57.403 --> 00:26:00.673
Yeah, it makes you really quickly realize how stupid the things you worry about is.

00:26:00.673 --> 00:26:06.166
Yeah, just like with my dad, you know, it's like I might have been upset about a, b and c and now I'm like those things are so stupid.

00:26:06.166 --> 00:26:08.511
You know, and I don't know, I couldn't wait to get home.

00:26:08.511 --> 00:26:10.375
I've never been more excited to get home.

00:26:10.395 --> 00:26:11.377
I wanted to leave that night.

00:26:11.377 --> 00:26:13.803
I was like I couldn't get away fast enough.

00:26:13.803 --> 00:26:14.744
It was just really weird.

00:26:14.744 --> 00:26:15.729
So the comp went on.

00:26:15.849 --> 00:26:21.415
The next day they didn't allow people back in the hotel or the arena for about five hours.

00:26:21.415 --> 00:26:25.948
Yeah, for the bar fight, right, but like it's weird.

00:26:25.948 --> 00:26:27.828
I just don't like when things don't make sense.

00:26:27.828 --> 00:26:28.569
It drives me crazy.

00:26:28.569 --> 00:26:29.590
We saw a video of the fight.

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It was nothing, so it's just confusing to us.

00:26:31.992 --> 00:26:35.955
I'm sure there's other people that it's confusing to, but it was quite an experience.

00:26:35.955 --> 00:26:38.718
So going back there the next day was very hard to like.

00:26:38.718 --> 00:26:41.119
Trust your kid in this scenario.

00:26:41.119 --> 00:26:48.569
There wasn't like metal detectors and like sometimes maybe you get annoyed at that stuff, but now I'm more grateful for it.

00:26:48.569 --> 00:26:51.997
Oh, they did have signs up that said don't bring your firearm into the convention.

00:26:53.339 --> 00:26:54.742
I'm all yeah.

00:26:55.186 --> 00:26:56.702
So that was good that they had that.

00:26:56.845 --> 00:26:57.890
I'm glad they had so many signs up.

00:26:57.930 --> 00:26:58.451
Yeah, they had signs.

00:26:58.451 --> 00:27:00.582
They did have armed guards and armed police officers, which was nice.

00:27:00.582 --> 00:27:02.071
That did make me feel more safe.

00:27:02.071 --> 00:27:04.626
Yeah, and our girls did amazing.

00:27:04.788 --> 00:27:08.633
Well, I'm sure a lot had their guns the next day but they had the signs telling you not to yeah.

00:27:08.633 --> 00:27:15.652
Well, yeah, the sign said don't bring them.

00:27:15.652 --> 00:27:19.534
But I was like, if it was a fight, why wasn't there no fighting signs?

00:27:19.534 --> 00:27:21.137
You know, it's fine.

00:27:22.525 --> 00:27:23.930
Supposedly it was over nachos too.

00:27:23.930 --> 00:27:24.874
That's the funniest thing.

00:27:24.874 --> 00:27:28.416
No nach there is this nacho line that everyone waits for?

00:27:28.416 --> 00:27:30.838
I love the nachos so bad so.

00:27:30.858 --> 00:27:32.881
I don't know if the nachos started the fight the day before we were walking.

00:27:32.881 --> 00:27:34.301
You said Kyle got the nachos last year.

00:27:34.301 --> 00:27:35.222
They do look really good.

00:27:36.106 --> 00:27:37.380
Maybe somebody took the wrong bite.

00:27:37.380 --> 00:27:39.144
Yeah, exactly, you know the good bite that everyone's mad about.

00:27:39.144 --> 00:27:40.230
Like, don't take the good bite.

00:27:40.285 --> 00:27:42.874
Sometimes that happens when I'm at a table and someone takes it.

00:27:55.133 --> 00:28:10.151
Yeah, you're all drinking and you're in tight quarters, so that would be a lesson learned, like maybe you know don't drink at those things and then maybe well and don't drink at them, so you can be of sound mind if an emergency happens like if I would have been drunk there, I wouldn't have been able to think and react so quickly.

00:28:10.151 --> 00:28:11.733
It was just an eye-opening experience.

00:28:11.733 --> 00:28:16.560
So then we had to fly home, so we were like, oh my gosh, you know, we wanted to get home so bad.

00:28:16.580 --> 00:28:18.747
Well, the next day we went back and that was hard, but then the girls won.

00:28:18.767 --> 00:28:19.650
so that was nice the girls won.

00:28:19.650 --> 00:28:22.277
They did amazing, they overcame Kids are relentless.

00:28:32.184 --> 00:28:33.469
People always say flew home and then our flight was horrible.

00:28:33.469 --> 00:28:34.412
So I was like, okay, god, just make it quick.

00:28:34.412 --> 00:28:34.673
Well, it was.

00:28:34.673 --> 00:28:35.414
We thought we were done.

00:28:35.434 --> 00:28:46.759
Well, we get to the airport and it's like sunny, sunniest day in the world, like couldn't be better weather birds well, and I just made fun of you about your flight, like I think it's yeah, I'm a little scared, but not like her no birds were chirping in the uber.

00:28:46.819 --> 00:28:48.425
Not sure what happened in the two hours we were at.

00:28:48.506 --> 00:28:49.968
I noticed it before we got on the plane.

00:28:49.968 --> 00:28:51.430
It was like totally gloomy Really.

00:28:51.430 --> 00:28:52.951
Yeah, you were just doing your.

00:28:53.952 --> 00:28:54.814
I was in a dark place.

00:28:54.814 --> 00:28:59.578
I was like really shooken up from the event, like I'm still not okay.

00:28:59.719 --> 00:29:00.200
No, we're not.

00:29:00.200 --> 00:29:01.300
That's why you look like this today.

00:29:01.540 --> 00:29:08.173
I know I might never recover.

00:29:08.173 --> 00:29:09.315
No, you're very shooken up.

00:29:09.315 --> 00:29:11.758
So we get to the airport and then.

00:29:11.758 --> 00:29:18.352
So we go to get on the plane and then all of a sudden it's raining, because you know, when you're in the airport you don't see so like now it's fully a storm.

00:29:18.352 --> 00:29:20.071
Now I'm back to the story from last week.

00:29:20.204 --> 00:29:21.170
Yeah, she was about to cry.

00:29:21.170 --> 00:29:23.031
Oh, I think she did cry when she saw it raining.

00:29:23.224 --> 00:29:25.614
Yeah, I was offering Crystal to drive us.

00:29:32.924 --> 00:29:40.570
Yeah, she wanted to off the plane because the phalange yeah, and then we take off and then the so she always looks for a fire in the wing and all of a sudden outside looks orange and I was like because it was foggy and then the red light was going.

00:29:40.631 --> 00:29:47.012
So it was like you know in fog how it makes the light spread, so it was like bright orange out the window and I go, is that?

00:29:47.032 --> 00:29:51.310
a fire like, and I was all no, yeah, and then you thought it was a fire, yeah, a fire, yeah.

00:29:51.310 --> 00:29:56.473
And then the wings were like, and it was like Matt might be, because the engine's down, it's now sideways.

00:29:56.473 --> 00:30:16.170
So then we were going sideways Like we'd go this side and we'd go that side, and I kept picturing the wing going down and then like spinning it was the worst turbulence I've ever the information and when we reach 13,000 feet, it dings for you to use your electronics and like that's a good sign.

00:30:16.170 --> 00:30:19.494
A pilot taught me that, so he's like when you hit the ding, that means it's a good sign.

00:30:19.494 --> 00:30:20.480
So there was no ding.

00:30:20.480 --> 00:30:21.384
There was no ding for years.

00:30:24.828 --> 00:30:26.832
There was not a ding for 20 minutes.

00:30:26.832 --> 00:30:29.695
I go Tricia who prayer with us and we'll have her on one day to tell her story.

00:30:29.695 --> 00:30:31.238
But we're saying the Lord's prayer.

00:30:31.238 --> 00:30:32.378
Her husband's a pilot.

00:30:32.378 --> 00:30:32.920
Yeah, I'm like can?

00:30:32.960 --> 00:30:33.861
you ask him why there's no ding.

00:30:33.861 --> 00:30:44.192
Yeah, you're all texting him.

00:30:44.192 --> 00:30:44.491
Text him.

00:30:44.491 --> 00:30:45.472
There's no ding, there's no.00:30:45.472 --> 00:30:46.394


Why isn't there a ding?00:30:46.453 --> 00:30:47.375


It's been like 20 minutes.00:30:47.394 --> 00:30:49.017


Yeah, cause the plane couldn't get there Like it was.00:30:49.017 --> 00:30:50.178


No, we were this way.00:30:50.178 --> 00:30:54.162


Yes, like I've never had a plane sideways and then this sideways it was awful, awful.00:30:54.162 --> 00:30:55.609


I was just praying so hard.00:30:55.609 --> 00:30:56.512


I was like this is it.00:30:56.512 --> 00:30:59.454


I'm like I survived a mass shooting to go down on a plane.00:30:59.454 --> 00:31:02.574


It was like my two worst fears, you're crying again.00:31:03.316 --> 00:31:06.314


I know I kept sitting under this lady trying to make her laugh, but I didn't laugh.00:31:12.625 --> 00:31:13.109


I was saying the Lord's Prayer, you gotta show the lady.00:31:13.109 --> 00:31:14.708


So then, in the middle of my panic, she shows me this picture and I thought it was like a foreign film.00:31:14.708 --> 00:31:14.941


See what, melissa?00:31:14.941 --> 00:31:21.423


What do you think that says she's far away.00:31:21.423 --> 00:31:22.625


Amy, amy Oak.00:31:22.625 --> 00:31:23.655


I'm I Oak, it's.00:31:23.655 --> 00:31:25.383


Am I Okay with the girl crying.00:31:25.383 --> 00:31:27.803


I thought it was like a foreign film, amy Oak.00:31:27.803 --> 00:31:30.884


So I'm like why is she showing me a foreign film with Amy Oak?00:31:30.974 --> 00:31:32.094


What the hell does Amy Oak mean?00:31:32.094 --> 00:31:32.636


No, it's.00:31:32.636 --> 00:31:33.361


Am I Okay?00:31:33.361 --> 00:31:35.993


You're not, you're not okay, I was not okay.00:31:35.993 --> 00:31:41.823


I go, this has been you for days and I'm like I'm a yoke.00:31:41.823 --> 00:31:43.184


Now you know what my brain's like.00:31:43.184 --> 00:31:44.487


Yeah, I can't ever see things.00:31:44.487 --> 00:31:45.127


No, so I'm going.00:31:45.348 --> 00:31:45.950


I'm a yoke.00:31:45.950 --> 00:31:46.566


What the hell is?00:31:46.566 --> 00:31:47.970


I'm a yoke, and this lady's crying.00:31:47.970 --> 00:31:48.273


It was awful.00:31:48.273 --> 00:31:50.247


Oh, it's just something.00:31:50.388 --> 00:31:50.913


So we're home now.00:31:50.913 --> 00:32:03.059


My nerves were so shot after that trip though I like I got home and worse, and like how do you move forward from that?00:32:03.059 --> 00:32:10.143


Yeah, like we're so lucky that there wasn't a mass casualty situation Like what we thought happened Right.00:32:10.403 --> 00:32:10.742


Thank God.00:32:10.782 --> 00:32:13.624


People did get hurt, but I don't think it was what we thought it was initially.00:32:13.624 --> 00:32:18.826


So how do you move on, like how you know even people like soldiers?00:32:18.826 --> 00:32:20.067


How do you move on?00:32:20.067 --> 00:32:21.127


I see how people have PTSD.00:32:21.127 --> 00:32:25.409


Because, even loud noises the whole next day everybody was just very, or when people would cheer.00:32:25.829 --> 00:32:29.030


It sounded that sound of when they were freaking out and running.00:32:29.030 --> 00:32:30.652


So it brings you back to that moment.00:32:30.652 --> 00:32:35.953


At every moment that something similar happens, you are transported back to that moment.00:32:35.953 --> 00:32:39.324


Yeah, and it is like it jolts your nervous system.00:32:39.324 --> 00:32:40.287


Yeah, To like a.00:32:40.414 --> 00:32:41.778


That's where you feel like your nerves are out.00:32:41.778 --> 00:32:42.178


Yes To like a.00:32:42.178 --> 00:32:43.320


That's where you feel like your nerves are out.00:32:43.340 --> 00:32:46.988


Yes, like you feel like your adrenaline, yeah, like I feel like I'm constantly on edge, where any little thing you know.00:32:47.008 --> 00:32:47.709


Well, it was so weird.00:32:47.709 --> 00:32:49.137


I ran because I don't run.00:32:49.137 --> 00:32:52.223


Maybe you know more, so you clearly work out, but I yeah, this is all.00:32:52.243 --> 00:32:53.066


Oh, I got to tell.00:32:53.086 --> 00:32:54.147


They said to me too.00:33:09.035 --> 00:33:10.480


So is that rude to say days Like I was coughing up things from my lungs that I didn't know was there?00:33:10.480 --> 00:33:11.049


Yeah, Like you know, when you run outside, how your chest?00:33:10.942 --> 00:33:11.323


burns.00:33:11.323 --> 00:33:12.356


Yeah, I've had that for a really hard CrossFit workout.00:33:12.356 --> 00:33:12.925


Like the rest of the day it was burning to breathe.00:33:12.925 --> 00:33:19.076


I've been coughing for three days because I like exerted my lungs so much that it was something so weird and I did learn I need to be in better shape.00:33:19.076 --> 00:33:20.117


You guys heard it here.00:33:20.178 --> 00:33:24.105


First because I didn't't like that, I couldn't keep up with my daughter.00:33:24.105 --> 00:33:28.453


Like you know how people say and this sounds horrible, but they're always like I'm in.00:33:28.453 --> 00:33:47.778


Like Stephanie Mallory, one of my good friends, who is Joe Fitness, she always says I want to be in good shape for my kids and I'm like I love that, yeah, but I'm never like I'm like I could hang with my, I can pick them up, you know I can do things, but like that moment was like yeah, I couldn't, I couldn't run ahead of her, I couldn't put her over my shoulder Right, like I was really out of breath.00:33:47.778 --> 00:34:09.342


Yeah, like it was scary and I was like okay, so I was telling a few people about that after and, um, some someone I know said to me you know, god has a weird way of teaching us things and I was like I was all telling him, you know, and then I'm just like I gotta keep up.00:34:09.342 --> 00:34:11.248


And he's like, yeah, god has a weird way to tell those things, and I was all took a turn, you know.00:34:11.248 --> 00:34:12.052


I was like it's not bad, no, you're fine.00:34:12.072 --> 00:34:12.713


You know how you lie to yourself.00:34:12.713 --> 00:34:13.838


Like I can zip my jeans.00:34:13.838 --> 00:34:17.775


They might be tight, you know, and I might be 12 sizes bigger than I was five years ago.00:34:17.775 --> 00:34:18.597


Well, like 10.00:34:18.597 --> 00:34:21.360


I keep acting like it's baby weight, but my kids are 15.00:34:21.360 --> 00:34:27.487


So it's like it's getting weird, but like in that moment I almost died and I let myself go and I knew it.00:34:27.487 --> 00:34:29.831


You know, there was no questioning it anymore.00:34:29.831 --> 00:34:31.579


Yeah, and I had egg whites today.00:34:31.579 --> 00:34:33.563


So, good job, yeah, I'm done.00:34:33.563 --> 00:34:35.675


I'm like going to work out like hard.00:34:35.675 --> 00:34:37.498


No, I got the weighted vest.00:34:37.498 --> 00:34:38.559


I've been scared to order it.00:34:39.139 --> 00:34:41.262


Well, I was, I was running and I feel like I work out pretty hard but sometimes.00:34:41.262 --> 00:34:47.271


But I was running and I feel like I work out pretty hard sometimes, but I was having a hard time keeping up with my daughter as well.00:34:47.271 --> 00:34:52.327


So I do feel like I did feel very mortal in that moment.00:34:52.327 --> 00:34:55.355


Like you know, you think you're going to have this like freakish strength.00:34:55.534 --> 00:34:58.762


Yeah, I had the freakish strength for the first half mile.00:34:58.762 --> 00:35:00.327


I couldn't keep up.00:35:00.327 --> 00:35:11.139


It was to a point where I was going to have to tell Hudson to go yeah, because I couldn't keep up.00:35:11.139 --> 00:35:14.206


It was to a point where I was going to have to tell Hudson to go yeah, because I couldn't breathe, and it was horrible.00:35:14.206 --> 00:35:15.849


But like, god has a way, so then I carry these chips with me.00:35:15.849 --> 00:35:18.114


We all lie to ourselves and tell ourselves that these things aren't that bad.00:35:18.114 --> 00:35:18.534


Well, it's that bad.00:35:21.335 --> 00:35:22.376


Yeah, like I got to make a change, so I carry these.00:35:22.396 --> 00:35:24.541


I love those pop chips, popcorners, yeah, popcorners are good, they good, they're so good.00:35:24.561 --> 00:35:25.202


The kettle corn I don't like.00:35:25.202 --> 00:35:25.903


I like the white cheddar.00:35:25.923 --> 00:35:29.983


I like the white cheddar, but the airport only had and I told myself that this is a better option than doritos.00:35:29.983 --> 00:35:33.918


It is a better option, but it was like 12 in the airport, so I brought it to the hotel with me.00:35:33.918 --> 00:35:35.143


We're getting back on the plane.00:35:35.182 --> 00:35:41.101


I got the pop chips still a week later, she's got the same unopened they weren't open yet why do I want to throw them out there for $12?00:35:41.101 --> 00:35:43.025


I'm like, oh my God, throw these chips away or eat them.00:35:43.025 --> 00:35:44.126


Why haven't you eaten them for a week?00:35:44.608 --> 00:35:45.510


Because we were going out to eat.00:35:45.510 --> 00:35:46.980


All the time I had no appetite in the room.00:35:46.980 --> 00:35:50.344


So we take them to the airport security.00:35:50.474 --> 00:35:52.659


They go through the thing even I mean these chips have been through it all.00:35:52.659 --> 00:35:55.525


They've been through a mass shooting like at this point.00:35:56.396 --> 00:36:00.574


We can't joke about that, yeah.00:36:01.416 --> 00:36:04.199


Alleged Alleged pole falling.00:36:04.199 --> 00:36:07.021


Yeah, they went through a pole falling bar fight.00:36:07.021 --> 00:36:08.902


Yes, that's what they went through.00:36:09.023 --> 00:36:10.244


Yes, yes.00:36:10.244 --> 00:36:12.967


So Tisha then found this popcorn at the airport.00:36:12.967 --> 00:36:14.668


That was really good, it's the Garrett's mix.00:36:14.809 --> 00:36:17.911


It's the Chicago half caramel, half cheese.00:36:17.952 --> 00:36:19.681


It's so good, so we each bought a $12 bag.00:36:20.135 --> 00:36:22.536


That's when I hadn't learned, yet I was disgusting yesterday.00:36:22.536 --> 00:36:23.978


I that's when I hadn't learned yet.00:36:23.978 --> 00:36:24.760


I was disgusting yesterday.00:36:24.760 --> 00:36:25.440


I just was so shooken up.00:36:25.440 --> 00:36:26.141


I was eating everything.00:36:26.141 --> 00:36:26.922


I was like I don't care.00:36:26.922 --> 00:36:31.329


I was so gross, you know, I was like it was just gross, it was gross I feel the same.00:36:31.349 --> 00:36:32.150


I feel disgusting.00:36:32.150 --> 00:36:37.726


Yeah, I agree, it was like reactionary instead of like you know Well, I don't drink, I don't do drugs.00:36:37.726 --> 00:36:51.286


I don't do not on my phone, though, nothing I could do yesterday, so I gamble on my phone to calm my mind down.00:36:51.286 --> 00:36:52.054


Yeah, so I could eat, I could eat.00:36:52.054 --> 00:36:52.630


Yeah, and that's what I was doing.00:36:52.630 --> 00:36:53.119


Yeah, so I was joining her, because you know so.00:36:53.119 --> 00:36:55.467


Then we go to get to the thing, and we bought all these snacks for the plane, because when I'm nervous on the plane, I eat.00:36:55.487 --> 00:37:03.003


I feel like this is an intervention right now, kind of you know, when you see yourself outside of your body, you know this is well that, yeah, yeah, that's happening.00:37:03.085 --> 00:37:05.588


So we ate some of the carrots and I'm like let's throw this away.00:37:05.588 --> 00:37:10.034


And then I'm like trying to throw her weak old bag of chips that she clearly is not going to eat away.00:37:10.034 --> 00:37:12.061


No, we had a full bag of carrots, too, that we had to open.00:37:12.081 --> 00:37:13.144


Yeah, yeah, yeah, and that.00:37:18.041 --> 00:37:18.782


And my brownie.00:37:18.782 --> 00:37:20.264


Yeah, here's your sign.00:37:20.264 --> 00:37:21.967


No one needs a Garrett's at a brownie.00:37:21.967 --> 00:37:28.076


No, I know that's not like it's sick, it's wrong, Well God.00:37:28.076 --> 00:37:33.628


So then Crystal's like no, I'm keeping it, so she puts it in this like bag to carry.00:37:33.668 --> 00:37:34.248


I was all excited.00:37:34.295 --> 00:37:35.701


Yeah, the brownie was really good, yeah.00:37:35.701 --> 00:37:41.119


So we walk clear to the other side of the airport, to our gate, and then we go to the bathroom.00:37:41.119 --> 00:37:44.282


We get out of the bathroom and we're at the gate and she goes where's the bag of all the snacks?00:37:44.282 --> 00:37:47.606


And I go did you leave in the bathroom?00:37:47.606 --> 00:37:51.311


She goes no, I think I left it at the restaurant which is across the airport it was really far.00:37:51.791 --> 00:37:52.715


So Tisha says so.00:37:52.715 --> 00:37:56.699


I said, well, God has a weird way of showing us things Like the same thing.00:37:56.699 --> 00:37:59.561


I'm going to say that forever now.00:37:59.581 --> 00:38:00.423


She's right though.00:38:00.523 --> 00:38:01.065


That's the thing.00:38:01.065 --> 00:38:01.766


Yeah, we started laughing.00:38:05.255 --> 00:38:14.507


So maybe the best thing to come out of this experience honestly is your health, because I'm having an out-of-body experience hearing how disgusting I sound out loud Like you know, like no, not disgusting, but like I'm making bad choices.00:38:14.507 --> 00:38:16.996


Yeah, it's like if I was an alcoholic Like.00:38:16.996 --> 00:38:19.264


So, years ago you used to eat healthy.00:38:19.264 --> 00:38:21.041


It was like the normal thing, like eat clean.00:38:21.041 --> 00:38:23.791


Right, we did paleo, then we did macros.00:38:23.791 --> 00:38:27.742


You know, I'm sure everybody knows about macros and macros is great because you can.00:38:27.802 --> 00:38:39.264


if it fits in your macros, you can fit it macros brings awareness to macro nutrients of carbs, protein and fat and, like I do think, a lot of people don't know that they're eating so much carbs or so much fat.00:38:39.384 --> 00:38:46.436


It does bring awareness to eating more protein and it helps like um heal your good food, bad protein and it helps like um heal your good food, bad food, mentality Right.00:38:46.978 --> 00:38:51.795


It's like moderation you can have this bad food in moderation, but where it's bad, is it?00:38:51.795 --> 00:38:54.764


You become so obsessed with counting everything, which is weird.00:38:54.824 --> 00:38:57.898


Right, that was bad, but what it did for me, that was bad.00:38:57.898 --> 00:39:07.871


There's some good for it, too, cause I, like my mom, wouldn't let me eat a lot of things as a kid, so when I eat them I don't stop Because I'm worried I'll never get one again.00:39:07.871 --> 00:39:11.541


Yeah, so I got to eat 12 brownies Because my mom won't let me have another one for a month.00:39:11.541 --> 00:39:13.802


Yeah, so I've learned to eat like that.00:39:13.802 --> 00:39:17.097


Like you just eat as much as you can when it's in front of you, yeah.00:39:17.097 --> 00:39:20.340


Or if I'm eating bad, I'm eating bad today.00:39:20.340 --> 00:39:21.420


Yeah, like I'm doing bad.00:39:21.440 --> 00:39:23.981


So I'm just going to throw it all away, yeah so that's a problem.00:39:24.123 --> 00:39:28.204


It's all a problem, yeah, but so when I do macros, I can have it.00:39:28.204 --> 00:39:29.867


It helps me realize how much I'm having.00:39:29.867 --> 00:39:31.987


But where it's bad, is it?00:39:31.987 --> 00:39:36.831


Let me reintroduce these foods that I stopped eating for years, like Brownies yeah.00:39:36.992 --> 00:39:42.539


Yeah, oh, I don't eat like pasta, and now I will.00:39:42.539 --> 00:39:45.242


Yeah, you know, like I would get a salad and have a bite of pasta.00:39:45.242 --> 00:39:46.503


That's just normal, right?00:39:46.503 --> 00:39:50.009


Whereas now it's like I order the fried chicken sandwich, which I would never eat.00:39:50.009 --> 00:39:52.795


A fried chicken sandwich I would eat like a bite, you know what I mean.00:39:52.795 --> 00:39:53.836


Like it would be more healthy.00:39:53.836 --> 00:39:55.458


Yeah, you know, right.00:39:55.458 --> 00:40:06.168


So I feel like that's where I'm realizing is like I've reintroduced a lot of foods like, oh my gosh, my friend, one of my best friends, and I the other one we realized one day that everyone that drinks real soda is skinny.00:40:06.168 --> 00:40:07.650


Have you ever noticed that For real though?00:40:07.650 --> 00:40:17.623


Like seriously, like my sister-in-law, stephanie, with a lot of kids, is so skinny she always drinks her real Dr Pepper, right, like every day.00:40:17.623 --> 00:40:31.103


Yeah, like even Kyle, my husband, like he's pretty, he drinks around 44 soda every single day and has a soda for night so Jen, and I thought let's.00:40:31.123 --> 00:40:34.329


This is so stupid, I already know where it's going.00:40:34.391 --> 00:40:37.759


It's so stupid, we're drinking all the diet sodas.00:40:37.759 --> 00:40:40.289


We said let's start drinking real soda.00:40:40.289 --> 00:40:42.918


You know, because everyone that drinks real soda skinny, yeah.00:40:42.918 --> 00:40:44.161


So we're like that's it.00:40:44.161 --> 00:40:47.931


This is the new plan, and like, we just started drinking real soda.00:40:47.931 --> 00:40:48.853


Yeah, and we're like.00:40:48.853 --> 00:40:49.675


Now we're like them.00:40:49.675 --> 00:40:50.978


Yeah, and it didn't work.00:40:50.978 --> 00:40:52.563


No, we gained like 10 pounds.00:40:52.563 --> 00:40:56.599


Yeah, because we ate, drank the real soda and then ate everything we're eating still.00:40:57.121 --> 00:41:00.677


I think the fake soda is horrible because of the the aspartame and all that.00:41:00.697 --> 00:41:02.420


Yeah, like the like the cancer-causing chemicals.00:41:02.782 --> 00:41:07.619


But the real soda's bad because that has like the sugar, which is bad it's just stressful.00:41:07.659 --> 00:41:15.547


you know, I do feel like years ago it used to be like just don't eat as much or stop when you're full or make better choices.00:41:15.547 --> 00:41:17.496


Yeah, that's kind of what dieting was Everyone.00:41:17.536 --> 00:41:20.559


I feel like I know that's skinny just makes better choices.00:41:20.579 --> 00:41:21.021


Or healthy.00:41:21.021 --> 00:41:23.324


We should probably get away from that word, you know, oh, skinny yeah.00:41:23.423 --> 00:41:24.865


Skinny, but a healthy way of skinny.00:41:25.085 --> 00:41:27.190


Healthy yeah, healthy Everyone knows, that's healthy.00:41:27.190 --> 00:41:32.117


Is eating, making better choices.00:41:32.117 --> 00:41:32.960


See, my mom always like had us on a diet.00:41:32.960 --> 00:41:33.280


I love her.00:41:33.280 --> 00:41:48.123


She doesn't listen that often but my mom was very into fitness and very into at our house was like a protein bar and rice and chicken, so like, like just as a kid I always wanted like goldfish or like those cosmic brownies.00:41:48.123 --> 00:41:54.204


So I would go to my friends' houses and they'd be like let's play outside and I'd be like in their pantry and it's weird.00:41:54.574 --> 00:41:56.121


Like how my kids are at your house.00:41:57.719 --> 00:41:58.833


So many kids are like that at my house.00:41:58.833 --> 00:42:01.918


They're like Bear comes out of Crystal's house his pockets are full.00:42:01.938 --> 00:42:03.099


Bear comes out of Crystal's house.00:42:03.099 --> 00:42:03.701


His pockets are full.00:42:03.701 --> 00:42:04.481


I'm like, what are you doing?00:42:04.481 --> 00:42:04.943


He's like nothing.00:42:04.943 --> 00:42:08.007


He's got Gushers and like those like Rolos, I don't even know.00:42:08.007 --> 00:42:11.490


I'm like I've never even seen these foods for 20 years my pantry's killer.00:42:11.490 --> 00:42:12.760


Like Star Crunch.00:42:12.760 --> 00:42:13.934


I don't even know they make these things.00:42:14.054 --> 00:42:15.360


Yeah, no O'Meal cream pies yeah.00:42:25.994 --> 00:42:28.184


I do back ken's kyle's like hey she's, you gotta tell kenny she can't steal sodas from us anymore.00:42:28.204 --> 00:42:30.313


she was like stealing like fighting hudson for like yeah, she was taking like 12 sodas.00:42:30.353 --> 00:42:34.574


I might take one soda yeah, she was putting them in her pockets too yeah, a lot of kids do it at my house.00:42:34.594 --> 00:42:37.427


Viral sodas at our house maddie's guy friends who are in high school.00:42:37.427 --> 00:42:40.938


We came home once my mom was over there with them all we walk in.00:42:40.938 --> 00:42:43.646


Four boys are in our pantry just going to town.00:42:43.646 --> 00:42:45.255


It's like a fun, it's like Disneyland.00:42:45.255 --> 00:42:47.081


Yeah, all my children's like your pantry.00:42:47.081 --> 00:42:51.760


But I do that because Kyle's mom always had that stuff and they're all pretty like normal in the head.00:42:51.760 --> 00:42:55.039


Yeah, with food you know there's no good or bad, they just eat.00:42:55.039 --> 00:42:56.688


They stop when they're full if they want to get healthy.00:42:56.688 --> 00:43:02.521


They're like yeah, I'll just make better choices for a week and I lose 20 pounds like they're all, but they're all.00:43:02.521 --> 00:43:03.943


Fitness is a part of all their lives.00:43:03.943 --> 00:43:09.318


Yeah, because Bonnie, my mother-in-law, always not modeled it Like.00:43:09.318 --> 00:43:11.074


She wakes up early, works out every day.00:43:11.094 --> 00:43:12.094


Yeah, Bonnie does work out a lot.00:43:12.114 --> 00:43:14.623


She's a very like, good, natural, great person.00:43:14.623 --> 00:43:19.797


So I loved it about Kyle that his mom ate pasta Right, Because my mom only ate lettuce so.00:43:19.797 --> 00:43:29.889


So I always thought it was cool when other moms ate real food Right, Like I remember once I went to dinner and the girl's mom was eating a cheeseburger and I thought it was the coolest thing, Right, your mom eats cheeseburgers.00:43:29.989 --> 00:43:31.190


Yeah, my mom eats lettuce.00:43:31.190 --> 00:43:49.722


But see, my mom didn't eat good but she was really skinny but she wasn't like healthy.00:43:49.722 --> 00:43:50.909


She was eating like Taco Bell but she'd just eat that for two days and that's it.00:43:50.909 --> 00:43:51.313


Yeah, that wasn't a good thing.00:43:51.313 --> 00:43:56.958


Model Cause I feel like that was more modeled to me, where I'm like, oh, you just eat crap, which I feel like Ben's family is so healthy and they all eat healthy, but they eat all the time but it's like they're eating healthy foods for their nourishment and health, not to be skinny.00:43:56.958 --> 00:44:00.603


Where my mom was like I'm going to eat what I want, but I'm not going to eat for two days to be skinny.00:44:00.603 --> 00:44:01.963


Right, it wasn't to be health.00:44:01.963 --> 00:44:07.451


So I feel like making the focus on health, not on the outer you know.00:44:07.514 --> 00:44:21.320


But the problem for me is it's like an eating problem, like if I'm eating healthy Like binge eating, not just that but if I'm eating healthy, I'm eating so much healthy food that I'm still eating too many calories.00:44:21.320 --> 00:44:27.538


You know what I mean and you can lie to yourself about health, like an acai bowl which we were getting.00:44:27.538 --> 00:44:31.465


Yes, they are healthy, right, but they're still a lot of calories.00:44:31.585 --> 00:44:48.195


Yes, and a lot of sugar, you know, like yeah, yeah, so like I can tell myself that's healthy because I'm an emotional eater, but I still think an acai bowl is better than two twix bars.00:44:48.576 --> 00:44:53.255


Yeah, in like what it's gonna do to your body right, right, for sure you know, yeah, it's all, it's all just.00:44:53.255 --> 00:44:59.438


But yeah, if you eat those, them both you're gonna have the same weight loss effects because the calories and the sugar might be the same, right?00:44:59.438 --> 00:45:01.802


It's just so confusing so I don't know yeah, I'm not a health.00:45:01.802 --> 00:45:03.264


We should have Julia on.00:45:03.264 --> 00:45:04.987


I feel like Melissa might know she looks great.00:45:04.987 --> 00:45:05.849


Yeah, melissa's really doing it.00:45:06.050 --> 00:45:07.900


Yeah, so you heard it here.00:45:07.900 --> 00:45:16.085


First I'm not going to eat any more brownies and chips on the plane, and then I am going to work out hard on my lungs because it was bad.00:45:16.346 --> 00:45:32.222


Yeah, no, I was talking when we were talking about the parasites about it was like some doc.00:45:32.222 --> 00:45:36.434


It was some doctor Gab Gabby, is that who you look, I don't know and so she was saying how parasites are being linked.00:45:36.434 --> 00:45:53.980


And I was talking to my sister too is very natural, she does all these detoxes and they were talking about how parasites are linked to like cancer and stuff and like how big it is and how, like a lot of doctors and because your cancer is your body's like attacking itself and trying to protect from the thing.00:45:53.980 --> 00:45:58.458


So if you have a parasite, you're, it's like your body's response to parasites is forming.00:45:58.458 --> 00:46:09.349


And he was saying how my sister was telling me too how people are getting rid of the parasites and they're curing cancer, like the cancer goes away, like the cancer is the symptom of the problem, not the problem.00:46:09.349 --> 00:46:14.010


And so many cancer treatments are attacking the cancer.00:46:14.010 --> 00:46:16.860


They're not attacking the underlying issue that's causing the cancer.00:46:16.860 --> 00:46:18.443


So it was just like really interesting.00:46:18.443 --> 00:46:20.438


I'm going to do a deep dive on that so we can talk about it.00:46:20.518 --> 00:46:22.041


Did you say I have a cancer doctor?00:46:22.442 --> 00:46:22.621


What.00:46:22.963 --> 00:46:23.724


Oh, I'm getting killed.00:46:23.724 --> 00:46:25.469


For sure, yeah, for sure, we got the Dallas shooting.00:46:25.675 --> 00:46:32.387


Yeah, I'm not going to be alive, but I'm happy and I would never do anything to myself and I'm all.00:46:33.996 --> 00:46:35.237


I'm scared sitting here now.00:46:35.338 --> 00:46:46.557


I know All right, this is it, okay, anyways, anything else, I feel like love your, just love your loved ones.00:46:46.557 --> 00:46:48.844


I'm like I've cried more in the last week than I've cried in 10 years, like it's what?00:46:48.864 --> 00:46:52.460


No, I just think it's like a good reminder that life is short and precious.00:46:52.460 --> 00:47:08.985


Yeah, and I feel like I keep getting that reminder and maybe God keeps trying to tell me something you know like, besides my health, but like I just think I'm a pretty passionate person and I get really involved in whatever I'm involved in and sometimes I forget this is my own take.00:47:08.985 --> 00:47:22.516


I forget to make the people in my life feel important and every time this stuff happens I'm like I've got to get out of working, it's whatever, it's coaching, it's this, it's anything, and sometimes I forget to just be with people that matter to me Realize the focus.00:47:22.536 --> 00:47:23.137


So that's something.00:47:23.157 --> 00:47:23.659


I want to learn.00:47:23.659 --> 00:47:30.666


Like you know, we schedule everything else in our calendar, but we don't schedule time with the people that matter to us as much.00:47:30.666 --> 00:47:45.179


Right, like for me, my calendar is booked for the next three months with things I have to be at, but not much of it is things I really want to be at, or I choose to be at, or I'm making priorities for the right things, priorities for the right things, right.00:47:45.179 --> 00:47:47.451


So that's my takeaway is like take control back, cause a lot of the things I'm so worried about don't matter.00:47:47.471 --> 00:47:48.175


Yeah, I don't really have a takeaway.00:47:48.175 --> 00:47:49.639


Maybe I'm going to take.00:47:49.639 --> 00:47:53.556


I'm going to definitely start taking something when I fly, Cause I'm tired of feeling like this.00:47:53.556 --> 00:47:59.320


I'm like I'm not going to be a better person, but I'm going to take medication.00:47:59.320 --> 00:48:01.483


No, I'm just kidding, Not really, I'm just kidding.00:48:01.483 --> 00:48:03.965


I'm not kidding, but you know, no, mine was.00:48:03.965 --> 00:48:07.668


I was very in the moment.00:48:07.668 --> 00:48:18.954


I was like what I learned is we have this false sense of security that you don't realize can be taken away at any moment in a movie theater.00:48:18.954 --> 00:48:28.467


Like I was booking movie theater tickets for Ben and the kids and I was picking the seats and I thought, oh, this seat's best, it's by the exit, and like I never thought that before.00:48:28.467 --> 00:48:34.255


So it's just like it's really changed my way of thinking and I just need to make sure I need to not let it make me more paranoid.00:48:34.715 --> 00:48:44.891


yeah, because fear is always from the devil yeah, and I'm a very paranoid person and very and at the end of the day I'm like I'm yoked, I'm yoked, I'm yoked, not okay, I'm not.00:48:45.233 --> 00:48:45.614


Not yoked.00:48:45.614 --> 00:48:46.639


That's what I don't like.00:48:46.639 --> 00:48:48.184


For you, though, is you've got to like.00:48:48.184 --> 00:48:51.800


Fear and faith can't go hand in hand, Right and they say that all the time at church.00:48:51.800 --> 00:48:54.884


Right, Like, so you have to let your faith, because we're okay.00:48:57.838 --> 00:49:09.681


And like there was a song at the concert, it's tomorrow I'm supposed to be gone, or next year, next 10 years, 20, 30, whatever yeah, but like in that song in Elevation Worship, it's like you're not done with me yet, and we used to joke with my dad.00:49:09.702 --> 00:49:12.076


I told you at the concert daddy's not done with you yet.00:49:12.076 --> 00:49:13.481


He's got more for you to do.00:49:14.077 --> 00:49:15.702


So our takeaway is there's more for us to do.00:49:15.702 --> 00:49:16.744


This is my second chance.00:49:16.744 --> 00:49:17.048


What am I?00:49:17.068 --> 00:49:17.594


going to do with it?00:49:17.594 --> 00:49:18.398


What are you going to do with it?00:49:19.916 --> 00:49:21.900


that's it, good luck yeah.00:49:22.061 --> 00:49:23.063


It's not take Xanax, though.00:49:23.543 --> 00:49:29.081


No, but I might Just being real Like, and if you need to, it's okay.00:49:29.081 --> 00:49:31.300


I used to judge people, I'm not judging anymore.00:49:31.300 --> 00:49:32.021


Maybe it's that.00:49:32.021 --> 00:49:33.164


Yeah, you should judge less.00:49:33.304 --> 00:49:38.539


Yeah, amy Oak, yeah, I'm like you got to be tougher than that.00:49:38.539 --> 00:49:39.259


Judge less, amy Oak.00:49:39.259 --> 00:49:41.101


Yeah Like, yeah, it's just hard.00:49:41.101 --> 00:49:43.043


It is hard why is it not okay?00:49:43.063 --> 00:49:45.164


No, but I do want my kids to know that isn't the answer.00:49:45.164 --> 00:49:47.746


But if you do need to take it for a minute, that's fine For a flight.00:49:47.786 --> 00:49:49.128


I don't think there's anything wrong with it For a flight?00:49:49.188 --> 00:49:56.079


no, I don't know, but we're like trauma bonded now we were joking about it.00:49:56.079 --> 00:49:57.481


We're like great.00:49:58.797 --> 00:49:59.157


More.00:49:59.217 --> 00:50:04.509


Literally we couldn't unless you put a strap on on and just, oh my God.00:50:04.768 --> 00:50:06.012


That's the only way we're getting Edit.00:50:06.012 --> 00:50:06.911


That's the only way we're getting closer.00:50:06.911 --> 00:50:07.733


You're going to call tomorrow and be like Tyler.00:50:07.733 --> 00:50:08.452


Can you take out the strap out for us?00:50:08.492 --> 00:50:10.179


Yeah that's the only way we're getting closer.00:50:10.179 --> 00:50:11.061


There's no closer.00:50:11.061 --> 00:50:12.425


I know Like we survived.00:50:16.438 --> 00:50:18.521


We've now survived everything together.00:50:18.561 --> 00:50:19.461


I can't even believe it.00:50:19.461 --> 00:50:20.443


It we survived something.00:50:20.443 --> 00:50:21.543


She's like shut up mom.00:50:21.543 --> 00:50:23.925


I'm having a moment with her.00:50:23.925 --> 00:50:24.746


I'm trying to hug her.00:50:24.746 --> 00:50:28.411


She's like God, let's end this All right, it's over.00:50:28.411 --> 00:50:28.771


Bye.00:50:28.771 --> 00:50:29.472


Thanks for listening.00:50:30.034 --> 00:50:37.954


Welcome to Jerking Around, a podcast that makes you feel better about yourself, because we're a mess just like you, and Crystal makes fun of me the whole time and it's great and it's real.00:50:37.954 --> 00:50:38.596


Take care.